Hey people! I'm here to tell you that i  had a great vacation in East Timor and East Nusa Tenggara. Some things happened so there were places i can't visit and it was heartbreaking. Remember those places i talked about on my previous post? Well, i didn't go to any of that places....I know...I was super disappointed but i'm totally okay now! Photos and reviews of places i visited during vacation will follow, but first........

I found out that a quiet place surrounded by trees and stuff really has impacts on my happiness. I felt more peaceful. It was like i had good self control and a clear mind during the vacation. I learned a lot during those days. And the best part was....I FOUND MY PURPOSE TO LIVE. It's the thing i have always looking for. I wanna help as many people as possibe. I want my existence in this world to be a blessing for them. It's amazing to know that the greatest feeling of all comes from being useful to others. I now realize the importance of learning at school, self-disciplined, being diligent, etc. I have made a commitment to aprreciate all things i have and all talents God has given to me, to develop those talents and skills so that they can be useful to others.

I want to be a doctor. I want to cure people. By curing them, i want them to have a chance to fix the mistakes they've done and a chance to enhance the quality of their life. A chance to build their happiness. I also want to heal people with piano. I want them to feel peaceful and forget their life's burden by hearing the melodies i play. I want to be a journalist. I want people to have a broader way of thinking through the news i share with them. Right now, i'm trying to find volunteer opportunities near me. I thank God for having this purpose in life. I thank God for everything He has done and i believe that He has a plan for me and for all of us, and that we are living a life without limits. Last but not least, i thank Nick Vujicic for being my inspiration and the greatest motivator ever. His words have touched the deepest part of my heart

I'm going to face the final exams on 25th May and holiday will follow in June. The school thing bores me somehow. I am planning a great holiday in Timor Leste, a country located in South East Asia, just like Indonesia. I googled great places to visit there, well i also asked my parents about it. My father is East Timorese. I've been there few times but i haven't gone to any of these places. I'm gonna take a lot of pictures and write the reviews of places i visit later. Before that, here are the places i'm dying to visit! Source : Google

How time flies! I was just sitting on a chair and listening to songs when the memories of old times popped into my head. Those days where I woke up at 5 am and immidiately went to the beach with my parents and brother. The fresh air of the sea. Those happy afternoons spent on this large field called Lapangan Renon, flying kites together with other kids. It was like a life without any burden. Cried just because of a broken toy, or a missing doll. It was so easy to be happy. Ice cream was my happiness.

As time goes by, various responsibilities arise. I started to be able to see the clarity and the way out of problems that exist. I started to think rasionally, started to try to fix everything by myself. Ice cream can never be my happiness anymore. Broken toy and missing dolls can never be my sadness anymore. Society that keeps on telling other people what to do, pretending that they have these God's eyes, making people forget who they were before the world told them who they should be.

I sometimes miss the 'i do have the ability to do everything i want to' thought  i used to have. Those naive behavior, you know..Well, i do have more freedom now, i don't have to sleep at 8 pm anymore. But sometimes i really really miss the kid's life thing...Don't you feel the same?

Peter Pan got a point when he said "Don't grow up, it's a trap"